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Gay literary agent and now author Bill Clegg's new memoir, Portrait of an Addict as a Young Man, details his rise in the publishing world and his swift fall from the top caused by his addiction.

Portrait  The NYT writes, in an extended profile:

"Set to be published next month by Little, Brown (excerpts appeared in New York magazine last week), the book traces his harrowing descent into crack use during the early months of 2005, when he suddenly stopped showing up at the literary agency he founded, Burnes & Clegg, leaving his writers, business partner and live-in boyfriend in the lurch. Much of the book takes place in a catacomb of chic downtown hotels, which Mr. Clegg turned into boutique crack dens by nearly depleting $70,000 in savings. It’s not an original story, but it’s one that Mr. Clegg recounts in excruciating detail, and in a matter-of-fact tone that belies the horror...There’s the first time he tried crack. ('The taste is like medicine, or cleaning fluid, but also a little sweet, like limes.') The tryst with a taxi driver behind a 7-Eleven in Newark. ('What I want is the blurry oblivion of body-crashing sex.') Or the time that his boyfriend, a downtown filmmaker who goes by the pseudonym Noah in the book, watches as Mr. Clegg smokes crack and has sex in a hotel room with a $400-an-hour Brazilian prostitute named Carlos. ('Shame, pleasure, care, and approval collide and the worst of the worst no longer seems so bad.')"

Clegg talks about the book, AFTER THE JUMP...

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  1. Big yawn, so tired of seeing people profit so handsomely from their own self destruction.

    Posted by: busytimmy | Jun 4, 2010 2:10:24 PM


  2. What's with the hacky music and overuse of awful stock footage?

    Posted by: Block Johnson | Jun 4, 2010 2:16:19 PM


  3. Does no one have any shame anymore? Keep your whoring and your drugging to yourself, dude. It doesn't make you special, just gross.

    Posted by: Fred | Jun 4, 2010 2:17:34 PM


  4. Tedious – and to pervert the title one of my favorite Joyce books! – please go back behind the 7-11, dear – and stop trying to rationalize (glamorize?) drugs and promiscuity through the lens of “addiction”.

    Posted by: Michael | Jun 4, 2010 2:31:08 PM


  5. If people enjoy or are helped by this book, that's fantastic. That said, I do find his sales pitch a little flimsy for someone who works in the book business.

    Perhaps he may have sought solace from his thoughts of death in a book, though he seems to suggest there were no books out there to show him alternatives to addiction/death. I'm sure there were plenty available to him had he looked.

    At least in that short clip, he hasn't created a compelling case for his story. And I often like this type of book.

    Posted by: Dan | Jun 4, 2010 2:32:29 PM


  6. @FRED: I hear you, mate. I hear you.

    Posted by: Sam | Jun 4, 2010 2:45:57 PM


  7. I'll buy it.

    Posted by: MP | Jun 4, 2010 2:46:51 PM


  8. I'd want to read it too. Find human behaviour fascinating.

    Posted by: Rowan | Jun 4, 2010 2:55:33 PM


  9. No one has said this yet, and so I will say it: I have DOZENS of happy, successful, smart, funny, attractive friends who are convinced that they are doomed to be single forever. And this guy, at the zenith (or, really, nadir) of his addiction has a dedicated, live-in boyfriend? What on earth is wrong with people?

    Posted by: Jeremy | Jun 4, 2010 2:58:01 PM


  10. This comes off looking more like a parody you'd see on Saturday Night Live, with all that corny ass music and video.

    That said, I'd like to watch him getting fucked my a cab driver, preferably a NYC cabbie wearing a turban and a long beard. Now that would be hilarious!

    Posted by: Brod | Jun 4, 2010 3:34:12 PM


  11. What is wrong with all of you?! This is the addiction memoir that is finally going to save lives! The author said so himself!!!

    Posted by: Feral | Jun 4, 2010 3:43:27 PM


  12. I just read this book and found it totally lacking and in parts not believeable.

    In one part, he talks about a days long crack binge with "Mark" and is able to remember, word for word, what they both said to one another? Really? I was at a party last night and had 3 drinks and I'm not sure I can re-count verbatim what was said or what I said. If my understanding of the timing of the book is correct, this part of the story took place before 9/11.

    And as for the boyfriend, Noah, I hope to God he's gotten his shit together. He is depicted as this helpless, whinning,clingy, sad character always forgiving and apolozing. He knew at the start of the relationship that this guy was a crackhead and still moved him into his apartment etc..etc.. So the scene with the hooker in the hotel illuminates not just how low the writer was, but what a weak dumbass the BF was as well.

    This whole thing feels contrived and pretentious and designed. I'm sure his drug + alcohol addictions were real, but this "memoir" isn't.

    Posted by: Ben | Jun 4, 2010 3:56:45 PM


  13. Ben, the definition of memoir is debatable... and controversial thanks to James Frey, Augusten Burroughs, and the like. But most literary types don't expect the dialogue to be word-for-word true. That would be impossible. A memoirist attempts to paint the scene of what happened at moments in his life, but it's not meant to be read as historical record.

    As for this particular memoir, he could be any dozens of guys I know. So I'd probably pass. I already did the 90s. And I remember some of it.

    Posted by: crispy | Jun 4, 2010 4:06:05 PM


  14. Kudos to anyone who pulls their life back together from the ravages of substance abuse, but I've stopped reading addiction memoirs. I've read them in the past and came away feeling like a rubbernecker who's enabling an author's sensationalism and/or narcissism under the guise of recovery.

    Posted by: Steve | Jun 4, 2010 4:14:26 PM


  15. I find this new genre (the recovering and recovered addict recounting tales of woe, addiction and desperation) tiresome and played out. Tedious... Yes, addiction destroys lives (and not just the addicts in many if not most cases), but I've yet to meet a more egocentric individual than the addict on the mend...which is perpetual. But, that's not unexpected given that the life of an addict is all about the addiction--and the "I". Who would have thought such a topic would be a marketable genre? The biography is dead...no longer are great, interesting people who've done amazing things with their lives the subject of autobios and bios...now it's anyone with a keyboard belching up their pedestrian lives, and trials and tribulations.

    Posted by: TANK | Jun 4, 2010 4:28:25 PM


  16. Knowing the NYC gay scene, and knowing the publishing world, and knowing this country's fascination with 15 minutes of fame - I have to be a bit cynical about this book. He's just a smart, smarmy agent who's figured out how to cash in on his reckless youth. He got a $350,000 advance for the book and is now promoting it with the hottest publicist and publishing house in NYC.....I'm sorry, but this smells.

    Posted by: Steve | Jun 4, 2010 4:34:23 PM


  17. What's this about his "intricate structure of secrets and sneakiness"? I thought he was living an OUT dream in Chelsea? Or was his drug use his way of coping with the double life of being a ... secret doper?

    Posted by: Spyro | Jun 4, 2010 5:21:28 PM


  18. Are we really suppose to feel sorry for this guy? He is good looking, successful, had a boyfriend but he chose to become some crack addict who could afford to have sex with Brazilian hustlers ?! Oh the tragedy !

    Posted by: jaragon | Jun 4, 2010 5:44:54 PM


  19. stop it Jaragon!

    I'm grieving for both him & Chase Crawford today... the poor tortured souls of this world :(

    seriously - who the fuck amongst us could afford a $400/hr Brazilian prostitution whore?

    and who *didn't* want to die on the bus on the way to school? c'mon

    Posted by: neverstops | Jun 4, 2010 6:17:47 PM


  20. and someone needs to tell him that the alternative to death for Gen X'ers was masturbating in your room whilst listening to Smiths albums

    where's my book?

    Posted by: neverstops | Jun 4, 2010 6:27:45 PM


  21. I, like many people who I talked with, never would try drugs for the simple reason that I’m not the strongest willed person. So if you know your weakness how the heck you would try such venom. But yet again, some people just learn the hard way if they survive that is. But addiction stays for life.

    Posted by: Lexxvs | Jun 4, 2010 6:43:21 PM


  22. I'm usually of the mindset that there's nothing more boring than an addict talking about his addiction. Well, perhaps, a theater queen talking about Elaine Stritch.

    But, in this case, I found the excerpt to be riveting - well written, not self-pitying, and very cinematic.

    I'm glad he's got his shit together, so we don't have to keep smelling it, but he does write a good story, and I will buy the book.

    Posted by: huh? | Jun 4, 2010 9:42:07 PM


  23. Please know that the music is too loud and drowning out your voice. I could barely understand anything you said.

    Posted by: Ruth | Jul 18, 2010 6:43:45 PM


  24. you silly, silly man

    Posted by: Justin South | Sep 20, 2010 5:29:53 AM


  25. hi,I have just only read about the book in 'nrc-handelsblad'a dutch newspaper. But I'm definitely going to buy your book.By the way,I'm schocked to read such a disgraceful comments on this site,but I do not think they have read your book,I will comment on your book as soon I've finished reading it.

    Yours sincerely,

    Morad A Macherhi

    Posted by: morad macherhi | Oct 4, 2010 5:18:45 PM


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