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More Details on Survivor Castaway J.P. Calderon's Coming Out

The Janice Dickinson Modeling Agency waited an additional week to air the episode featuring the coming out of Survivor: Cook Islands castaway J.P. Calderon. I missed the episode, but Reality Blurred fills us in on the details.

JpcalderonJ.P. voiced his hesitation about opening the closet door: "A real big reason why it’s so hard to come out is you’re scared of losing the people that are so closed to you, your best friends, your close friends, and most importantly, your family. And I don’t want to be considered a disappointment...I hate hating myself. And I truly hate myself, I truly don’t like who I am. Maybe this is my way of letting go and finding out who’s gonna to accept and me and finding out who’s not. … I’m in a daze right now. I’m happy, I’m excited, I’m scared, I’m apprehensive, and I’m not really sure what the hell I’m doing right now. I’m just tired of living this facade of something that I’m not, and I just want to start living as something that I am. I better go home and start telling people."

But Dickinson was there to support him both emotionally and in the pool. The self-proclaimed "world's first supermodel" reportedly held his legs during the Instinct cover shoot to help him stay afloat. She told Calderon:

"I just wanted to tell you how fucking proud I am of you. Coming out yesterday must be really hard, and then being on the cover of a national magazine the next day? … It’s really, really good...Live for yourself, not through other people’s eyes and the way you think you should be in their eyes, otherwise you would be a very unhappy old person. Trust me."

The interview with Calderon is now online.

J.P. Calderon: “I truly hate myself” but “I just want to start living as something that I am” [reality blurred]

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Although his activities in and around gay people and nightlife were widely reported, former Survivor: Cook Islands castaway J.P. Calderon (seen below with openly gay castmate Brad Virata) had never come out publicly. That will apparently happen on this Wednesday's episode of The Janice Dickinson Modeling Agency, according to Instinct magazine, for which he does a cover shoot during the episode.

"It’s not every day somebody gets slapped in the face with a major magazine like Instinct, Janice Dickinson, her TV show. I think I’m just supposed to do this!" says Calderon. "I'm coming out and I'm living."

Of the self-described world's first supermodel, Calderon says, "We started a little bit butting heads, but I love Janice Dickinson. I want everyone to know, she is the coolest person in the world."


The episode airs this Wednesday, January 24 on Oxygen, and Calderon is featured on Instinct's February issue. You can see the cover for that issue, after the jump...

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