Elliot Page “knew [he] was a boy” when he was just a toddler.
The 34-year-old star – who was previously known as Ellen – came out as transgender in December 2020 but the ‘Umbrella Academy' actor admitted he had adopted a male identity from a very young age.
Speaking to Vanity Fair magazine, Elliott said: âAll trans people are so different, and my storyâs absolutely just my story. But yes, when I was a little kid, absolutely, 100%, I was a boy.
âI knew I was a boy when I was a toddler. I was writing fake love letters and signing them âJason.â Every little aspect of my life, that is who I was, who I am, and who I knew myself to be.”
The ‘Juno' star finally feels like he's who he really is, but there is still a “grief” surrounding his situation.
He continued: âI just couldnât understand when Iâd be told, âNo, youâre not. No, you canât be that when youâre older. You feel it.
“Now Iâm finally getting myself back to feeling like who I am, and itâs so beautiful and extraordinary, and thereâs a grief to it in a way.â
Elliot – who split from wife Emma Portner last year – finally feels able to “just exist” and feel relaxed in any given situation.
He said: “The most significant difference is that Iâm really able to just exist. Just exist by myself, like be able to sit with myself. Not have some constant distraction, all these things that arenât conscious or arenât even overly overt.
” For the first time in, I donât even know how long, [I am] really just being able to sit by myself, be on my own, be productive, and be creative. Itâs such an oversimplification to say it this way, but Iâm comfortable. I feel a significant difference in my ability to just existâand not even just day to day, but moment to moment.
” This is the first time Iâve even felt really present with people, that I can be just really relaxed and not have an anxiety thatâs always pulling.”
And the actor hopes that contentment will help with his career.
He said: “In terms of acting, I donât think I quite know yet. I am just a lot more f****** comfortable and present, so itâs hard to imagine that thatâs not affecting the work, because, really, being presentâs ultimately what youâre going forâyouâre just ultimately trying to crack open and be present and connect to the truth of a moment.
“So Iâm imagining the more I get to embody who I am and exist in the body I want to exist in, thereâll be a difference.”