Officer X: Gay U.S. Military Pilot Writes Blog for ‘TIME’ Magazine

TIME has hired a new anonymous blogger, Officer X, who will be writing about the end of the military gay ban:

Officerx I have been given the opportunity to share my firsthand experiences from the inside as I watch the fall of a policy that is undeniably discriminatory. By “not asking” and “not telling," the people repressed by this policy have been robbed of their voice to speak out. As a result, the impact of such a policy doesn't hit close to home for enough families, friends, or coworkers. By blogging here, it is my goal to share the excitement felt by every gay and lesbian service member as this burden of lies, cover stories, and double lives is lifted.

In his first blog, Officer X writes about being told the news that 'DADT' repeal is coming:

As with any other conversation about gays in a setting where I am not “out,” I found myself reverting to old defense mechanisms. I tried to laugh, but not too hard. I listened intently while trying to look as if I was barely paying attention. I looked to see how everyone else was reacting only to mimic their posture, their level of attentiveness, and their own reactions to the conversation.

A good friend of mine, also gay, was standing next to me throughout the briefing. We barely looked at each other the entire time. His posture was much like mine, only he didn't laugh. He didn't smile. There was a cold emptiness in him which I had rarely seen before. I guess that was his way of not drawing attention to himself.


  1. luminum says

    I doubt he’ll have to be in a short while. :) It’s exciting that we’re standing right on the brink of the end of DADT. It could always me mired by the last shouts of bigotry and grasping at straws, but we’ve never been closer.

  2. Ted B. (Charging Rhino) says

    Now let’s hope that no-one purposefully or accidentally “outs” this young officer. And by that I includes the military G/L community not speculating on which of the compatriots is “Soldier X” in their own blogs or their comments on open blog-sites like this one.

    Let’s intelligently discuss what he reports, but not who he is. For once I ask the G/L community self-police itself and just “don’t ask, don’t tell” about Soldier X. Just don’t….

  3. Scott Lumry says

    From a sociological perspective, this is gold. I appreciate everything this officer is doing and look forward to reading his blog and advancing the voice of those who have had to hide for so long.

  4. says

    On the one hand, though it’s not just indefensible but incomprehensible that investigations and discharge hearings of gays continue FIVE MONTHS AFTER the repeal bill was signed [tho we’ve yet to HEAR of anyone actually discharge—which doesn’t mean it hasn’t happened], on the other, though I’ve long respected each service member’s right to do what he/she feels best—there is no reason to believe that even if they were discharge that it would be sustained. In short, there is no longer ANY excuse for this author and his gay fellow soldier not coming out and putting a face on gays in the military so they could accelerate acceptance of open service when it finally officially comes.