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Gay Adult Film Star Arpad Miklos Dead at 45


Arpad Mikos (aka Peter Kozma), a NYC-based gay adult film actor who appeared in more than 58 films, took his own life sometime on Sunday. Howard Bragman spoke with writer Randal Lynch and broke the news on his web show Gwissues.

Watch Bragman's interview with Lynch, AFTER THE JUMP...

Miklos, who was discovered in Hungary by Kristen Bjorn while working as a chemist, did charity work and also appeared in a 2012 music video for "Hood" by the artist Perfume Genius.

He was 45. Our thoughts go out to his friends and family.

(photo via flickr user nicecatch)

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  1. Someone who's attractive is objectified everyday, not just because he's in the movies or porn videos. Some begin getting extra attention when they're toddlers and NEVER stop getting extra attention. Men (and women) who know they're attractive automatically use their looks to move on up in the world, often without realizing that's what they are doing. Their ego gets some additional support that many of us never receive.

    I doubt the depravity of performing in pornography is the primary reason porn actors end their lives. These men have been performing (not sexually) for themselves and others since they were very young. I think addiction problems, internal biochemical imbalances, sudden changes in status, and rootlessness are what may cause these men to choose suicide.

    I don't know if the rootlessness is a cause or an effect, but I do know that friends and family and helping others make people feel connected in the world. Most of the male porn stars who killed themselves recently seemed rootless and seemed to lead purposeless lives. Suicides often cut themselves off from the world before they choose to leave this world. If they've seemed very depressed for awhile, and suddenly become much happier, that's often a sign that they have made a decision to commit suicide. They are feeling some joy because they have decided to end their pain.

    Posted by: BigGuy | Feb 5, 2013 11:07:38 PM

  2. It is useless to try and make snide snarky generalities about a man who was first and foremost a MODEL, who had a God Given TALENT to be able to communicate SPIRITUALLY in his work. Yes he did porn but so bloody what?? He was a beautiful individual who was deep and intense. I know all about the porn sex syndrome but in this particular case there is something totally beyond these stereotypes and clichés. Stop for one moment and try to imagine the utter PAIN that this Magnificent ARTIST was experiencing. He had so much talent in so many areas, this is absolutely an earth shattering moment not only for myself but for perhaps millions of men and women. And to learn that he was born on 11 September - -can anyone imagine how this may have affected him? This is a story which is only beginning to be told. I send all my Most Sincere Condolences to everyone he touched in his life, be it friends, family, fellow performers, photographers, directors, lighting techs: it seems that all who were involved with him are in mourning.

    Posted by: Vincent de Angelis | Feb 5, 2013 11:26:56 PM

  3. Mostly, it's the brightest, kindest, most wonderful people for whom this world can be very painful in which to live. That is the only judgement I can offer.

    I am sad for the loss of those who knew him.

    May he rest in peace.

    Posted by: Kevin Foster | Feb 5, 2013 11:42:52 PM

  4. I read an interview with him and got the sense that he was a very intelligent, sophisticated European man. He saw his big chance to come to America from his native Hungary, and took it. A university graduate and chemist by profession, he thought he could do better in the USA... even if it meant a porn career. What a beautiful man, in all senses of that term. What a loss. He must have been in serious pain, to take his life. May he rest in peace.

    Posted by: David | Feb 6, 2013 12:22:16 AM

  5. What an absolute shame to loose such a handsome man, how sad he felt this his only recourse. My sympathy to his friends and family, the world is a little darker today. RIP x

    Posted by: Chris | Feb 6, 2013 2:59:26 AM

  6. Hey, David Hearne, let's have a friendly chat about the Internet. You said:

    >> "It also bugs me that when you Google image "gay" the first thing that comes up is porn."

    My friend, Google uses your past searches to tailor your results for you. When I search for "gay", I get stories about marriage equality and The Big Gay Ice Cream Shop.

    >> Like it or not, one is judged by the company he keeps.

    Yes, one is. I didn't know Arpad Miklos, but based on the comments here, I bet I would have liked him. What will your friends say about you? Repent, dude. There's still time to be a good person...

    Posted by: Lee | Feb 6, 2013 6:22:23 AM

  7. As sad as this is , unfortunately my experience was so negative that I am neutral on his suicide and I think it is important to shed light on how he treated some people. I worked on a movie with him Bounty Hunter and was so respectful of him that I introduced myself on the set as if he was the president of the United States instead he treated me with coldness, arrogance and was even argumentative about how long my flight back to SF from Vegas would be. I did not have a sex scene with him but even when we went to dinner after the movie wrapped up, he was only interested in one co star and the rest of could have been invisible. He even motioned this co star to move from me and sit next to him. I was not attracted to him in any way but could not believe his narcissism. I guess we never know what someone is really going through and it is unfair to judge but I think for someone like him growing older movie offers and escort work becoming less frequent the fear of the future is scary. New York is a difficult place for non achievers, you may be welcome in the bedroom but not at a social event and that is hard to take when you gave up everything for a life as a sex machine when in the end you don;t even have that. Two films were enough for me, porn is a disgusting avenue to take as it fails to feed your ego and bank account. You can be replaced by the next new face and the comradery is as fake and meaningless as the the sex you pretend to be enjoying.

    Posted by: Nick Angelo | Feb 6, 2013 7:47:44 AM

  8. I was sad to learn of his passing and an aging baby boomer his work in porn was always appreciated I think by those of us that remember the early days when porn was NOT available to gay men. Everything I read about him indicated he was great gay. Sad always when someone takes their life. Mental health is still not being treated in an open forum so people feel that they can get help to prevent such tragedy.

    Posted by: Michael | Feb 6, 2013 8:28:35 AM

  9. How many have to die? I am still reeling from Adam Faust. All the guys I crushed over for years are disappearing. Today is another sad day. RIP Arpad. You were one hell of a stud.

    Posted by: ClumBaby | Feb 6, 2013 8:42:51 AM

  10. @Nick Angelo,

    Good post.

    'New York is a difficult place for non achievers, you may be welcome in the bedroom but not at a social event and that is hard to take...'

    'the comradery is ... fake and meaningless ...'


    Posted by: ratbastard | Feb 6, 2013 11:50:30 AM

  11. @Clumbaby,

    Faust described himself as a 'fisting top, and into sado-masochism and bondage. He died as a result of heavy crystal methamphetamine use.

    Sounds like he was sweetheart.

    Posted by: ratbastard | Feb 6, 2013 12:06:07 PM

  12. what a loss , too many men fall from grace in the porn industry it seems. Always missed.

    Posted by: matt | Feb 6, 2013 1:50:08 PM

  13. They are the stars/gods of the gay community...that's why they inspire so much lust/hate amongst certain gays...

    Posted by: Alan Brickman | Feb 6, 2013 5:16:47 PM

  14. Maybe if there were more help for porn stars dealing with any remorse for their choice of doing porn. Or maybe if we'd try to view them as people rather than a piece of meat. I'm sorry for the loss of life , and the fact that I had never had the opportunity to meet the gentleman personally. Rest In Piece.

    Posted by: Bamajoe | Feb 6, 2013 8:07:30 PM

  15. My favorite of all, I loved this guy. He was so hot. Still can not believe it...

    Posted by: Hairylovercr | Feb 7, 2013 12:16:46 AM

  16. So sad.....a waste ...he struck me as handsome and intelligent. RIP.

    Posted by: DH | Feb 7, 2013 9:55:22 AM

  17. Who? Never caught him in any "porn". Yawn. He was responsible for his own demise. Why make a big deal of people who commit suicide?

    Posted by: Does It Matter? | Feb 7, 2013 11:07:51 AM

  18. Because suicide is an epidemic in the gay community? Because this man is a icon in the gay community and one of the representations of what it means to be gay, be masculine and gay and have and enjoy fulfilling gay sex as a man? So yes, it does matter, his life has impacted a lot more people than yours ever has and probably could.

    Posted by: Francis | Feb 7, 2013 3:32:37 PM

  19. He was hot.

    Posted by: Edgar | Feb 8, 2013 12:15:24 AM

  20. There is a youtube video of several hundred porn stars having killed themselves, died from AIDS and fatal DUI car crashes. About half are gay male porn stars and the other half straight male and female porn stars.

    Most of the deaths have been in the past few years. The video is a slideshow of non pornograpic pic of a few seconds with the name, date of death and cause such as AIDS, Suicide, drug overdose or DUI death.

    Porn stars are taking their lives more. And it's not just guys doing gay porn it's guys doing straight porn and gals doing straight porn.

    There are ministries in Califoria and NYC which attempt to reach all porn people to help them get out of doing porn.

    If you want to find the youtube video try a youtube search of 'so you still want to watch porn' or close. You'll find it.

    Doing porn kills. Those in porn have major personality issues and often substance abuse and an overall general poor mental health.

    Posted by: Brian | Feb 10, 2013 4:45:35 AM

  21. NOOOOOOOOOOOOO! What a loss, such a hot guy, what a stud!

    I remember fondly my own adventures with a Hungarian guy who looked VERY much like him. :P

    Posted by: HOCKEYJOCK | Feb 12, 2013 4:30:56 PM

  22. @OS2GUY - You say that you "love life so much and never understand why anyone would think life was not worth living" Don't you realize that 10-15% of the population is either clinically depressed or bipolar? I am bipolar and have seriously thought of killing myself many times and two of my bipolar friends have done just that. That usually explains a suicide - not a bad day at the office or a midlife crisis.

    Posted by: manicpanic | Feb 12, 2013 11:58:46 PM

  23. I think it is very sad that Arpad has passed away -- he was obviously in a lot of pain.

    I am wondering if anyone knows how he committed suicide since I know living in NYC that there are some people in the gay community that I worry about and I would like to know what potential warning signs could be

    Posted by: Almir Soares | Feb 13, 2013 1:54:26 PM

  24. The contents of the suicide note will leak eventually. We gays can't keep a secret to save our souls. RIP Arpad.

    Posted by: StevenX | Feb 22, 2013 2:37:53 AM


    Posted by: clydee | Feb 22, 2013 2:54:34 AM

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