Actor Jim Parsons went deep with Stephen Colbert on Thursday night, explaining what it felt like to be a gay man in a relationship for 15 years and to finally get married to his husband Todd.
“I didn’t really think we cared about the act of it that much, to be honest with you. And that sounds cold in a way, but I finally thought…well, let’s have a party then for the celebration of, and we’ll go ahead and legalize this thing. And I really thought it would kind of end at that, a party feel but it was so much more meaningful in the moment to me than I predicted. And it’s been resonantly more meaningful to me afterward than I ever saw coming. I’d been an adult gay person for so long at a time when that wasn’t possible that life was ‘fine,’ you know what I mean?”
He tried to explain how being married legally was different than just being partnered:
“There is an underlying thing a little buzz of something. I keep reminding myself of it. I kind of forget, and then I’m like, ‘we’re a legal thing, just like mom and dad were.'”
And then he explained how he felt when he knew Todd was the one:
“There’s this sense of divinity, to be in love, to find love in that way is as close as anything else I can imagine doing that gives me the feeling of being close to God or whatever that is for you. And there’s a sensation. When we first got together I remember lying in bed and closing my eyes and but not being asleep and that sensation of ‘light, light, light,’ and I was like ‘oh, I don’t know what’s going on exactly’ but it feels close to something important, eternal…”